Spending Time With You

with a dreamy smile i close my eyes
and inhale memories of your warm mesmeric scent
the aroma of you recaputures those innocent butterflies
that only sweet adoration can bring
i'm tempted to just lay in my thoughts
becoming wrapped in you

you have this swagger incomparable to anyone else
your style fly
your presence calming and secure
your spirit meek
your mind mysterious yet intriguing
your gentleman demeanor makes me want to devote my life catering to you

can I?
can I show you the woman in me that's been waiting for your arrival.....
coz there's no end to the joy i find in spending time with you

mood: chillin like a villian....no this poem doesn't have a name to it

So for the past couple of months this concept of living has been ringing in my quiet thoughts:

Say what you mean and mean what you say

My best friend calls people who contradict their words with their actions sh**ty a**holes.
For example: If you are invited to the movies and you don't really wanna go, so you just flake without calling. This makes you a what? a sh**ty a**hole.

Say what you mean and mean what you say

If we decided to put away our childish behavior and become tactifully honest with ourselves and others, a lot of confrontations and hurt feelings would be avoided.......but hey, i'm just sayin!

So that's pretty much what's been on my mind lately besides thinking:

*I'm really tired of school! I feel like i'm just going through the motions (because Spelman doesn't have my major!) and I want to do something more productive in my life that stimulates my passion for music.

*What is so wrong with choosing to make lukewarm romances obsolete in my life??? A lot of people bark their hot breath down my neck about the necessity to talk to several different men simultaneously... I can't do it, it's too emotionally and mentally confusing. I've done it in the past and it becomes too much. Besides, I don't think it's fair. A person deserves an honest chance to show you who they are without being compared to the next man/woman you have on the other line. ( And i'm not competing with another woman....that is really softmork! timeout! either you want to date me or you don't) That's really insecure if you HAVE to always receive attention from the opposite sex, so you call Mark when Thomas is busy...really?

*I just want to be all that God wants me to be.... I can't change who I am and I shouldn't feel ashamed because my morals/values as a lady differ from the mediocre woman. I can't lower my standards or expectations to be temporarily accepted..........Proverbs 31, Romans 12:1,2 lives through me and hey, that's ok.......

* If you carry yourself as a gentleman/lady then you deserve to be treated like one and don't make any exceptions!

more to come..............