Since I was a CHILD, I can recollect subconsciouly making self-preparations to become a great woman, a great significant other, and even ultimately-- a great wife. It wasn't something that was pounded in my head, it was just a desire.Hmmm, that's interesting. I just always had a unique mindset, compared to average, about relationships. Reading books to help develop me. Conversations. Observations. But now, I'm really beginning the makings of me and all the attributes that accompany Shiena. I like it ,no love it. :) :)

But you know, being a 'virtuous woman,' a 'wife,' isn't an 'I Do' overnight transformation. It can't be bought or taught, it has to be IN you. And with correct guidance, it's developed until when people look at you, it's immeadiately recognized. I like to see it as a gift. Annnnnd with that said, whenever what I have to give is chosen to be completely received.....when I'm allowed to be what's in me to be to a man..................................hey, shoot (shrugging my shoulders)..... I just want it to work :) LOL (and that's real! Forget all the deep stuff! Lol)

Moving along here, do I have to casual date? Coz, I'm not in the mood right now. Lol. Never really been. I actually don't like 'dates,' unless we're already in conversation, people act so phony. Just be yourself, instead of trying to be what you think I want to see. It's not until you get comfortable, and this whoooole other person emerges........um, no thank you boo! How about some honesty with me AND yourself buddy?
.....hmmmm other thoughts.....

.......Me and my 'randomness'. I shock MYSELF at times.....the texts, the phonecalls ( to ask a friend if she remembers what my umbrella looks like, b/c I CAN'T, and I need to find it...huh!?! Lol), the e-mails......

well, actually I'm not REALLY random. I'm constantly thinking, but I don't reveal all, so it appears random- yeah, thaaat's it....so I promise, there's always a method to my 'randomness'......

However, thinking before speaking is something that needs mastering. (Using wisdom to control my emotions, can go ahead and join that list too, have to BALANCE.) I am improving tho, but geesh! All I can say is: I have GREAT friends, because they put up with 'Ms. Shiena'. Honestly, there are people in my life where I wonder,

'How did I live before I knew you!?! I need you to properly survive!'

My life would be just INCOMPLETE, and different....in an undesirable way. These people don't even know what their mere existence means to me. Their affect, for just being THEM. I love my friends. :) Yes,yes, even you :)

Well until next time, smile-smile-smile! :P

~Shiena

( I miss you Danielle!)

Well, wasn't I a sad lil camper
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So I'm SUPER hyper about getting on the train for the first time last week......bought my lil amtrak ticket, feelin good! feelin great! Woooo Hooo!

I mean I had it alllll planned out! I was going to do the dramatic movie scene, ya know, where you gaze out the window b/c you really don't wanna leave that "someone"......and he gets to the tracks riggggght when the conducter pulls off.... (well no one was really comin, but- you get it)

I mean look, I was too happy:




Then POP! there goes my lil bubble, ...........................................................................................

I'm on the METROLINK!!!!!!!

(gasp!) nooooooo! I paid ten dollars for the AMTRAK! And it was too late to go find the actual TRAIN, so I just sat there, dissapointed!



Well, one day I'ma get on that amtrak.......shoot, i got jipped two dollars!!! (the link was only 8) I coulda bought a bag of purple skittles and a couple of laffy taffies! I'm just SAYIN ........bummer buddies....

( and i wanna thank the two lil white men that cracked my face and told me the dreadful news.....)

Welll, at least I got to my destination.....................

WELP! maybe next time!

I'm not sure how to cope. How do you deal with your friend being GONE??? I mean, I've cried incessantly in between keepin busy..........and it's not workin. My kleenex wasn't big enough, so I grabbed a paper towel to catch the tears, (let's see if Bounty can pick up this ), and if I sniffle one more time.....

I had a selfish moment, and yelled to God, " Couldn't you take someone who didn't care about me!?!" I can imagine He probably gave me this look like, "No she didn't."
Well, I did. I don't have many people that I can call my true friend. Even those labeled as my "BEST friend" at times have proven to be ignorant to the term.

But, DANIELLE ELLARD- my crazy nut in crime, my eating buddy, that was my friend. She always called right when I needed someone genuine to talk to. I saw her number in my phone, and I just couldn't delete it Yes, I'm in denial. I wanna call her sooooo bad, but I can't deal with her not being on the other end.

No, I didn't know her all of my life, but we just had that connection. The last time I spoke to her we had a conversation about friendship....she said "it's like, if I had one can of pork-n-beans left and we had to eat, we gon split it and make it work, I'ma give you more in your bowl! And not think twice about it!"

That's a friend.LOL And dealing with stupid from people I've known longer than her, makes me value the relationship we had even more. Don't take people caring about you for granted, no matter who they are to you. Those sincere hearted people are hard to come by!

Don't take ME for granted, if I show I care....hey, I really honestly do. I take all of my relationships seriously.... If someone calls you, text, e-mail, whatever,.... hit em back! Hang out, enjoy them, don't be so self-absorbed, you are NOT that busy. As Fred Hammond said, Make TIME for Love.

I'm at peace that I did get a chance to have a heart-2-heart with Danielle before she passed (a week ago today), really tell her I appreciate her presence in my life. Let that be the same for you, tomorrow is never promised. Now, she's gone.

I miss my girl!

xoxo



she's smilin, coz she was about to EAT!

Spelman College 150th Anniversary April 06

me and Kayce at Hennesy's




who is this man!?!?!



me and the menu :) for memories




the chicken was delish! aww yeah baby!




Christine my server, she's a cutie!



doin it a lil stupid! ;p



my innocent look lol



I look like my dad in this pic!




I'm workin on my "don't cheese" pics, they're hard I love to smile! ( but this is Kayce's favorite picture)




check out my dress!



one more time for the road!




the fourth of july ( the other holiday besides my birthday, you know the non important one! LOL )



she gon act like she didn't want to take the picture! Dawnielle the next hollywood actress!! (MY favorite picture!)

Hello World :) I'm writing to announce my new joy, and my beginning of the next level in my life.....Bear with me, bear with me.......

Sometimes you don't even realize you're being weighed down; until the negative spirits behind the issues show their ugly face. This past week I really experienced some craziness, because the enemy was just putting all types of thoughts in my head. I've never struggled like I did to keep my mind at PEACE. I tried writing some music....... calling my friends (of course they were occupied! lol ) and just walking to keep me busy. However, negative thoughts just continued to cloud my thinking.

Ya'll, it was crazy. The enemy will attack your mind, because he knows what you think dictates your actions..... Lemme tell ya, spiritual warfare is REAL, and you need to be armed correctly if you expect to be victorious! Philippians 6:11-19 speaks about this, check it out in your leisure.

So after praying.....and praying......and praying, I go to church on Sunday and get waaaay more than I bargained for. I didn't want to go up for prayer, but I got tired of arguing with God's voice..... " I was like, FINE! (lol)" Man, that preacher read me like a book! Things were confirmed, I was released from feeling heavy, and set free from the doubt and low self-esteem that I thought didn't even dwell in me. You have to kill things at the ROOT, you can't cover them up and act like they don't exist!

Well, before this turns into a "sermon" ( c'mon church! offering!), if you see me smiling a lil extra than before, just know it's a testament of God's promise to me. He told me to get up from the altar with a NEW smile (shown above!), because I don't have to go back anymore. ( Yes ya'll, I was on the floor behind the veil, ok? lol)

God's word will NEVER return void. If He gave you a dream, a vision, a promise.....TRUST Him to do what He said. What He birthed in you is not for everyone to understand, because then you wouldn't need to trust HIM. What good is it to proclaim belief in God, if you put your trust in man???? His thoughts are not man's thoughts! Isaiah 55:8-13.

Sooooooo here's a lil warning: God has released me to go forth in His anointing in some areas...... eye has not seen, ear has not heard...... you can either roll with me or wave at me when I'm passing by. Walk in your authority so you can be blessed! Holla!

Where are the real Christians at? Please stand up! Where are the believers who aren't afraid to admit they have struggles and problems. Those that say, "Yes, I fell short today of what is required of me, BUT GOD!"..... I mean, what would be the POINT of being a believer if we didn't trust Him? Where are the REAL Christians at!?!

Where are the Christians who understand it's not about "church?" Where are the Kingdom builders? Please stand up! Those who realize their royal priesthood and know their authority. Those who worship when no one is looking. Those who live their everyday life as a vessel of ministry. Can you please stand up?!?

Life isn't about wearing white and red on Annual Choir Day, or being the President of the Ursher Board. And can we stop limiting musical gifts just within "gospel?" Why do you call it "gospel" if everyone you're singing to is already saved? Yeah, think about it.......................

Well, for the record, if anyone wanted to know and so there won't be any CONFUSION, yes, I write gospel music, and it's not the kind "church members" are used to. Take the limits off, get out of the box.........where do you stand? I hope your standing up.

here's some pictures of what i've been doin lately. From greek probates, to Patti Labelle, to senior recitals.............and chillin with AXIS choir members (AXISSSSSSS lol) enjoy!






Sarah is one of the most beautiful moms I'VE ever seen!



One of my fav fams in the world! They keep my dyin laughin...It's the JOHNSON'S!



Ryan's Senior Recital.......You killed it girl! Doesn't she look marvellous



Our lip pose lol.....we still look cute! ( Look at Sarah in the back, always eating! That's my girl, eating ain't nevva hurt NOBODY!)




pulled out those easter pastels! lol



NIkki, I HAD to put this one up, so people can check out your photography skills! lol Yes, guys Nikki is the brainchild of this pose lol



Of course I had to break bread on Easter...He said do this in rememberance of me......and I thought about Him....... while I ATE IT ALL!



Patti doin her thang



lovely ladies that I PTL with :)



See that lady in the middle? That's Jovan, she busted out with her sancitfied sexy outfit so I HAD to take a picture! Jovan, you be holdin out girl! lol



This is the young man that taught me how to drive!!!!!! Yes guys, Shiena Sneed can drive now (um, Marques when are we going for a ride on the freeeeeeway?)



Rasheen...one of the best big brothers in the world.....ain't that blue FLY !?! Wish ya'll could see the whole fit.....




want a good home cooked meal??? holla at my boy D! Woooooooo! ladies, he's single and lookin for his bookie :) ( please send all inquiries through me for a detailed screening)



At the Glee Club Reuion banquet recital for Dr. Joyce Johnson.....this is my sent from heaven voice teacher Dr. Rodgers



This the other "Sara" and she's real beastly on the mic....look out for her in the gospel industry she's annointed and SICK! (oh yeah, this the glee club reunion)



Quick pose with Berrakia C/O 2005 at the banquet



One of the sweetest freshmen....Ms. Sakinah Davis!



Alright Valencia, I see you ! (banquet)




Two Less Greeks! My roomie Vanessa and Jael after being inducted into Swing Phi Swing ( I swore I was on line too, what a crazy six weeks! lol )



Swing Probate on Clark Atlanta's Promenade ( a.k.a. the strip!)




Vanessa was so tired, when they strolled out, she just stopped in the middle of it and took a breath lol I wonder where all that energy went??? hmmmm lol



Do it JAEL!



It's Forte (Lauren) and meeeeee (Crescendo) at the banquet




Kimberlin, Melissa and Caroline on the way to the End of th Year Glee Club Banquet



This is how Doc looks when he's tired.....that's all the time!




Jasmine, don't get comfortable with my nephew! He was fascinated with my phone, that's why he has that expression on his face



My nephew Winson Alejandro Johnson Vega I love him.......



Winston and his father Windsor




Alpha Probate....this is the part where they get so crunk " I love my A-PHI, I love my A-PHI!" Get it ya'll! ( the picture is blurry but they're steppin)




This is my OFFICIAL morehouse brother, Micah Moon....He's an Alpha Man now.....O-O-O-O 6!



An older Spelman Sister C/O 1992 Danielle....She's NO Peach! (125th Founder's Day Convocation)



My lil sis Garnie......she's a walking dictionary...I love her!



Taking a quick break from eating.....yes, it's always good to celebrate food!