Aaaaah yes....PEACE!

I'm am feeling so great right about now (besides my deepest frustration of having to press one for english.....grrrrr)......I mean, I have never felt so light. Re-evaluating my personal circle has been one of the best life decisions made thus far........(I cleaned my phonebook out months ago..I recommend it--how you will ever meet new people?) It is extremely problematic if I'm the only one with serious life long goals on my mind, ....I mentioned this whole thing of letting go of people in my last blog, I was referring to all of the platonic relationships being entertained.... there weren't A LOT, but a few of them were ummmmm, just NOT the business.....

I have finally been ok with not answering the phone if I don't feel like talking ( I used to feel guilty...I know-- I'm too nice), hanging up if the conversation becomes draining, and whew! It feels great...lol.....

I was talking to one of my good friends, and I expressed my realization to the equilibrium within our friendship.........I was shocked that for once someone was treating me the way I treated them...like a friend! lol I laughed at myself because only *I* would bring it to someone's attention...lol

In times past, people that I have befriended needed me in their life, but their presence missing wasn't detrimental for Shiena.....and that's when I discovered that everyone you help isn't meant to be a best friend, etc. Out of gratitude for helping someone with an issue, they esteem you so high and want to put a label on it........

Anyway, I just wanted to put my feeling of peace in the atmosphere because yeah....I'm feelin grrrrrrrrrrreat! :D lol

It's kinda like going to the airport today, then years ago.......you used to be permitted to carry however many pieces of luggage you desired ( I used to pack EVERYTHING)...but now you are only allowed to carry a minimum amount, and that makes you more cautious of taking only what you NEED......and although you may not like it, it's actually beneficial for you because your load isn't as heavy and it's easier to ensure safety......you'll catch that.....

Well, I'm off......love life and live in love.....GOD'S love......that's the only way....


*side note: MAY 24th is the next CALM & COLLECTIVE!!!!!!!!!!! Planning is already in smooth motion....hope to see you there (We ARE accepting love offerings for those of you who JUST can't be there ;P )